Maid trouble again

Since Aarush has come into our lives, we had to take the decision of keeping a full time maid..We had little other choice as I needed someone to help me do the daily chores and also in looking after Aarush as I work full time.Moreover so since my in-laws were also staying with us..

And then came the daunting task of finding one..calling maid agencies, running after them to give you a maid..
I remember the first one I got was really good, but as is said good things never stay for long..She went to her office to visit her brother and never came back!!!
Got 3-4 replacements after that and none stayed more than a month...

I had to take a decision of forgetting my money and find a new one through a separate agency..By that time I had realised, its not important how good she looks, how good she works as long as she is not stealing money and is stable.......

Luckily this one stayed one complete year...and then as always had to go... and in a way I was also relieved as she had started acting a bit too smart for my likes......

Now started the next yearly task of finding a new one...and after about hundreds of phone call, I found one, though the commission was a bit higher side but I was desperate as I had to travel onsite for a month and needed help urgently.......

She was working fine till the time I left....and suddenly today morning hubby dear calls up saying she has run away...

And thereby went all the thumbs up I had given to myself for a well done task.......
Sometimes I wonder till when will this cycle continue......is there an end to it????

No one ones...I think this is life , one challenge after another, one struggle after another....
sometimes to get a job, other time to keep it, looking well after your kids, and most important
the struggle to be sane amidst all insanity...........

Before traveling to USA

Due to some official work and knowledge transfer sessions with our US based client, I was asked to travel to US and be there for like 5 weeks.

I have been to US once before, so wasn't too excited about the prospect of doing so again..But bosses order are bosses order... I was too unsure about leaving my 18 months son behind with his grand parents...Though I knew he would be looked after well and better than what I can care for him...But still !!!!

But after affirmations from hubby dear, and my parents that Aaush would be fine without me left me with no other reason to decline the offer of going....

So began all the preparations of traveling, shopping packing and the most important getting emotionally prepared for leaving Aarush.........

That guilt and strange feeling of leaving him is with me and some times pinches so sharp and deep that the pain is almost unbearable...........